I’m smack dab in the middle of Generation Y. From speaking to my friends, reading books, articles, and blogs and hearing the stories of readers, it seems that many 20-somethings struggle with expectations and challenges of growing up, from relationships to the workplace and everything in between.
On one hand, it helps to know that I am not alone in this. On the other, I hoped that such feelings would magically be resolved in a couple years. But that doesn’t seem to be the case…
So, I have a bit of a Type-A personality. And all the not-knowing-ness associated with the 20-something years (what’s my passion? will I get married? can I be successful and happy? will I be satisfied with where I am in 10 years?) isn’t sitting well with me. That is probably why I read so much on asset allocation, pour over my budget, and blog endlessly about my finances. Not because I value money above all else, but because managing my money anchors me. I won’t go so far as to say that personal finance is meditation, but it makes me feel less adrift in the great waves we call the “twenties”.
And that’s also why:
1. I’m beginning to study for the GMAT even though I don’t plan to go to business school anytime soon. Studying makes me feel like a student again. Sure, we’re all “life-long students,” but I find that sitting down at my desk and really study, even for an hour, makes me feel productive in my off-work hours. The test doesn’t care how good you are at other aspects of life. It’s just you and the test. Mano a mano. (Or, mano a examinacion). That kind of simplicity can be really, really nice.
2. I have plans to volunteer at a couple of nonprofit organizations this fall, not because I’m such a wonderful person who want to make the world a better place (I mean, I do want to do good, but that’s not the only reason), but because when I don’t have things planned, I would just sit alone in my room and several hours would pass. I’m not sure, however, if that’s a symptom of 20-something malaise or just a sign of laziness.
So, in conclusion to this very inconclusive post, plans are good. Feeling like a student once in a while is good. Channeling my need to control in an uncontrollable world to areas that will benefit me (i.e. personal financial management) is good.
But I’m also working to be at peace with feelings that I don’t like. Loneliness, uncertainty, sadness. There are a lot of things that I can do to bid my time until those feelings go away. I can pick up a good book, I can cook a nice meal, I can just accept the fact that bad feelings are a fact of life, and wait until they pass. I pray. It kind of helps.
So, I’m not the only one right? Anyone else feeling the way I do?